Lies or not

I lied and said I was busy.

I was busy;

But not in a way most people understand.

I was busy

Asking M.S. to please let me try

I was busy silencing irrational thoughts.

I was busy giving M.S. a pep talk,” we got this, let’s shine”

I was busy telling myself I am okay.

Sometimes this is my busy,

and I won’t apologize for it.

*I copped part of this from something I saw dealing with anxiety, I made a few changes, making it fit M.S. or at least my M.S.

Due to M.S. this is a daily battle

I must endure to have any kind of life.

Sickening and heart breaking rolled up some kind of bullshit cigarette.

I choke on Without even putting my mouth on it.

I might feel good when I get up,

But a shower and getting dressed I’m spent.

Depends on the weather wether I can be whole and pretend (fake it)

Living MY life is not for the faint of heart.

I could quit, and not try but that’s not me.

I will not give up, no matter how hard trying is

That’s not my style

I will look back tomorrow and analyze today

Where I can improvise and make it easier for me to try again!

Heidi Talbott

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